2005-05-21 - 10:10 p.m.
it all became so clear.
sigh. my blog's d e a d. i need to hold a memorial service for it soon):
yes yes. slept at O N E last night and woke up at T E N. its the latest i've ever woken up this year. slacked around then went for tuition. the teacher was pissed off cos like we all didn't bring our calculators. but who cares anyway, its my last lesson(: haha. good riddance to lousy maths tuition which doesn't help a single bit. sigh. but i think i need tuition desperately for mensuration and trigno cos i seriously do not u n d e r s t a n d. really. like all the formulas and everything just doesn't get in. i so swear subject of formula is quadrillions easier. went for cell after tuition. i think the word was powerful today, even though it was an old sermon preached by pst kong. its so true that sometimes we have to let go of certain things in our lives before we can see our vision, our purpose in life. and while we were praying, suddenly, everything that happened in my life the past few years became so clear. why i had to leave n262. i had to leave, to learn the meaning of submission, to grow in my spiritual walk and to see what the mighty plans God has for me. suddenly, it became all so clear. i realised that if i were still in n262, my christian walk probably would not have improved, tingzhi probably wouldn't be in church now, i wouldn't have finished my getting started and go on to christian lifestyle, i probably wouldn't have got my OM membership card either. i had to leave so i would grow. but of course, the letting go part was so hard and so sad. after one whole year, i grew so close to them. even in june04, i was much closer to them than e302 now. and well, i guess, i did have to learn to move on. but im glad i still didn't lose contact with them. well, not really anyway. and now, im really glad i finally understood why God wanted me to leave and make that commitment that i'd be willing to go wherever he takes me(: yes. haha. well, getting late. need my sleeeeeeep. BYE.
yesterday is gone
Well i can't get You off my mind
And I think about You all the time
Its so easy to see that You're real to me
You gave this life of mine
I get down on my knees and pray
Lord You know I will never walk away
You are always by my side
I live just to see you glorified.
I love You
I need You
I want You here with me
Yesterday is gone
I'm here where I belong
This is where I'll stay
Jesus I will never walk away
I'll never walk away